Friday, July 13, 2007
Joy Comes In the Morning
I realize the last two posts have been very serious--and not much fun to read. You guys have all been so sweet with your comments. I just wanted to say that I'm fine--we're fine. We've been healed and whole for many, many years. The first few months were extremely tough, and I remember that the sound of a baby crying was more than I could bear. We found it very hard to praise God in our circumstance. But the Lord truly did have a plan--we didn't understand it then, and we don't understand it now--and that's OK. We don't have to--we just have to trust Him. And we do. My plan was to not have any more children after Kassidy died. I didn't think I could go through it again. But I changed my mind very quickly and couldn't wait to conceive. I was pregnant within 6 months. The healing had begun. I asked God to give me twins. I remember saying to God that I really wanted twins, but not if He didn't think I could handle it. Of course, B wasn't exactly on board with this prayer. But I do know that God gave me a great big 'YES', and those two precious babies were born 14 months after their sister passed away. I was completely healed of the heartache the moment I laid eyes on them. And I can't imagine my life without them. God had a plan. God is Good.